366 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 01:13:38
I just finished reading the archive. ...and I realized I can't keep the days of the week straight anymore.
I can't believe it was only two days ago (Saturday) that I posted here about the events in the Shibuya hotel (Thursday).
Feels like so much time has passed since then.
After I posted that, I returned to A-ko's apartment and stayed there several days.
We had a long fight that continued until dawn, at the end of which I had to promise to A-ko to stay with her
until she headed to school on Tuesday. Well, all kinds of stuff happened, and I was somehow able to
"slip out" yesterday evening (Sunday).
After that, I went to my buddy's place to ask him for advice, and finally got back home this morning.
The day passed with me just doing laundry, returning stuff to the library, taking an afternoon nap etc.
And all I could think of before and after my overly long afternoon nap were the last 4, 5 eventful days with A-ko.
I came to the realization that my life before that was only so uneventful and empty because I didn't try to do anything.
If I had only tried harder to make something happen, anything could have happened.
At first, I thought I'd only post a short summary of what happened, but then I got curious about how it must feel like to
read about the whole thing myself a few months later, so I'm going to write it all down in chronological order.
......let's go back to Friday night then, the day after the hotel visit.
376 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 01:23:52
When we were looking at the menu in Denny's, we talked about our favorite foods,
and I told her mine is Indian curry with fried chicken. Apparently, A-ko hadn't forgetten.
"I made curry with fried chicken because you said you like it. Would you like to have dinner with me?"
I thought (....urgh, sounds like a pain. I don't feel like it), but figured I'd be in trouble if I said no,
and answered "Ohh, sounds good!" like I was happy about it.
It seems, I have this habit of saying the opposite of how I feel to people if I feel like it'll make them happy.
But obviously, I also figured that I might get another shot at having sex with her again if I went.
"Then, please hurry up because the fried chicken are going to get cold."
"Yes, ma'am, I'm heading over ASAP."
Speaking of which, I realized that the reason I was so sure that I could score with A-ko in the beginning
was because we're on the same wavelength, and because it's so easy to talk to her.
379 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 01:29:57
I took a shower and brushed my teeth in the record time of 15 minutes, headed out and purchased condoms on the way.
On the train, I swore to myself,
"I'll lose my virginity this time for real."
"If I can, I'll try out as many lewd things as possible."
"If there is a chance, I'll make up an excuse and break up with her.".
Even though the last two were more more wishful thinking than anything, I felt ready for my first sex.
I think I arrived at my destination shortly before 8 pm. She came all the way to pick me up.
"You said you'd give me a call before you come."
"I couldn't wait and came right away. (lol)"
Her hair smelled of shampoo.
When I saw A-ko smile, I was glad I came.
385 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 01:37:34
Naturally, it was my first time entering a girl's room, not to mention a girl's place.
Although her apartment looks like an old wooden building from the outside, the renovated interior was very pretty.
It was just like I'd imagined a girl's apartment to look like.
Extremely neat and tidy.
"I had to clean up in a hurry, so please ignore any dust you might see."
It was a six-mat single-room apartment like mine, but her room was clearly
more spacious with a separate bathroom and toilet.
"I wouldn't have known what to do with all the food if you'd said no.
I hope I'm not causing you any inconvenience."
"Not at all. Now that I've quit my part-time job, everyday is a Sunday to me.
I'm seriously grateful because I've been only eating out lately."
"I always cook my own meals. Isn't eating out everyday heavy on your wallet?"
"Eating my girlfriend's homemade dinner together... Ahh, this is what I've always dreamed about."
"Feel free to come over for dinner anyday. (lol) You can come everyday if you want.
I can't guarantee the taste though. (lol)"
(It's true. I've always dreamed about having a loving girlfriend in my life.
She really is a good girl. If only her outer appearance was more to my liking,
she'd be the perfect girlfriend...)
394 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 01:44:18
Sweet curry isn't exactly my favorite type of curry,
but I kept telling her "It's so yummy! You're a genius! Three stars!" anyway.
Judging from her humble smile, she seemed happy to hear it.
When I praised the fried chicken next, she explained how she marinated it in ginger.
I guess she was pretty proud of the result.
"It's a pity it's a bit cold now though. I'd give it 2 stars."
It was yummy enough for 3 stars, but I wanted to say something for the sake of saying it.
Seeing A-ko's face stiffen for a moment, I quickly regretted the unnecessary comment though.
"There's ice cream in the fridge. Help yourself if you want."
I'll never forget how there were 3 packs of Ajinomoto crab pilaf in her fridge too.
I also learned that girls don't have any beer in their fridge.
408 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 01:51:12
We had ice cream together and she showed me her high school graduation albums and family pictures.
According to her, it was one of the leading high schools of the prefecture, but boy, most of her female classmates
were so ugly they made A-ko look almost pretty in comparison.
Another thing I noticed is that A-ko is a spitting image of her mother, so now I can imagine how A-ko will look like in 20 years.
Soon, the clock turned 9 pm. (I better get down to business if I don't want to miss the last train...)
I was starting to get impatient.
(I guess I'll focus on the sex part today, and save the break-up part for another day...)
"Don't you have to prepare for the test?"
"Nah, I'll be fine... Actually, you're right, but I want to spend time with you too, Senpai..."
(I wonder if she feels bad that we couldn't finish having sex because of her...)
Since we were sitting on her bed and watching TV, I decided not to say anything anymore,
hoping the silence would create the right mood.
She grew silent too, so that after a while, all you could hear was Cunning Takeyama's angry voice from the TV.
426 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 02:01:55
Without a word, I reached for A-ko's hand and entwined my fingers with hers.
She did the same and squeezed back.
The moment I thought (Okay, it's time to kiss...), A-ko asked me,
"Senpai, what do you like about me?"
"Eh, ahh, it's as I said in the family restaurant. You're gentle, and you always have a smile on your face.
I feel like I can relax around you... Plus, we're on the same wavelength, and I like slender girls like you..."
The truth is I prefer chubby girls, but I tried to quickly repeat everything I had said to score with her.
"......is that all?"
"......I'm sure you're a very kind girl too...
......I also like how you look intellectual and cute..."
I knew I had fucked up before I even finished my sentence.
A-ko must be painfully aware of her looks, or lack thereof,
so telling her she's cute was uncalled for.
But against all my expectations, A-ko seemed pleased by the compliment,
said "......thank you very much. ......I'm glad to hear that.",
and leaned against me with a drunk expression on her face.
577 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 15:19:13
I whispered into A-ko's ear,
"......can I kiss you?"
Without a reply, A-ko closed her eyes and raised her face to me.
As usual, her face was nothing remarkable, but I pressed my lips against hers without hesitation.
I even opened my mouth and tried pushing my tongue in.
A-ko opened her mouth halfway in return and let my tongue inside.
I twirled my tongue with hers, and licked all over her teeth and gums.
It was my first deep kiss. When I opened my eyes slowly during the kiss,
A-ko had her eyes closed and seemed kinda entranced, all the while breathing heavily through her nose.
I remember finding her a little bit moe looking at her at that moment. And how her lips tasted like the curry we had.
After the kiss, I turned off the TV, and started undressing her without saying anything.
"......I'll turn off the lights because it'd be embarassing like this, okay?"
I recalled how I couldn't get a clear view of her pussy the previous night, and said,
"Hold on... I want to see all of you, A-ko.
......plus, it's harder to aim with the lights off..."
"......alright."
(Oh yes! Looks like I can get her to do anything for me if I ask nicely...)
584 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 15:25:53
Hmm... I'm not sure how much of it I ought to include in my report...
I fear it'd end up sounding like an erotic novella even if it wasn't my intention...
For starters, I think I'll only write down what left a big impression on me.
(Urgh, it's like a disaster area...)
In the bright light, the skin of A-ko's upper body, especially her back and her nape,
was so bad that I felt pity for her.
A-ko's naked body was as disappointing to look at as last time... this time, however,
I felt a certain sad affection for her.
Then I played with her boobs. Her skin is brown everywhere, only her areola are dark brown.
Her boobs, for lack of a better way to describe them, felt like water balloons.
I've never touched any other boobs, so I can't possibly know, but they just feel too soft.
It made me think, (I bet they'll become really saggy when she hits 40...).
Licking her nipples makes them stand up, and licking them even faster makes A-ko feel good
and go (；´Д｀) pant pant.
I was afraid she might scream "Oww! It hurts!" like the previous night, so I kept asking her again and again
if it feels good and if it doesn't hurt.
Eventually, we both got naked, and held each other tightly.
586 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 15:32:16
I tried touching her pussy with my fingers.
But for some reason, she wasn't as wet as when I touched her there the previous night.
(Oh boy, she's in for a lot of pain tonight...
Hmm... Didn't I read somewhere that when this happens, you have to apply saliva using your fingers or lick it to get it wet?)
So I lowered my head to get a closer look at her pussy,
but as soon as I did, she said "Ah, no! It's embarrassing...",
closed her legs with all her strength, and refused to spread them.
I looked up at A-ko's face. It was completely red out of embarrassment, and she seemed seriously flustered.
And it gave me the biggest boner ever.
Until then, I couldn't really get myself to trust A-ko when she went (；´Д｀) pant pant,
because I kept thinking in the back of my head that she might be faking it.
But that embarrassed expression on her face like she's about to cry? It was 100% authentic.
(OH, OHH, OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!)
(Seeing a woman extremely embarrassed is so fucking sexy!)
I had just uncovered a new fetish of mine.
594 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 15:40:51
"...please, could you open your legs for me? ...let me take a good look at your pussy."
I tried to sound lewd on purpose in order to make A-ko feel even more embarrassed.
"Eh, no, I mean... It's embarrassing with the lights on."
A-ko's face was so red, you could've sworn she'd been stripped naked in the middle of a public place.
Ahh, the look on her face. Priceless.
(As long as she looks embarrassed, I might be able to get off to her even if she's ugly!)
So I said with a disappointed tone,
"......sorry. ......let's try it another time then."
She covered her eyes with her right arm while whispering "ahh... ahh... embarrassing...", and finally loosened her legs.
I raised her knees up and spread her legs in an "M" shape.
It was the first time I saw A-ko's pussy in a bright light.
In order to get an even better view, I brought my face nearer to it.
That's when......
612 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 15:49:30
That's when the same horrible stench from the previous night assaulted my nose.
I instantly stopped breathing through my nose (until I pulled my face away).
There was a dark-bluish violet(?) flap of skin left and right.
The right one was about three times bigger than the left one.
On top was a button-like thing about the size of a matchstick head.
(So this is the so-called clitoris, huh...)
Between the flaps was a crevice of some sort, but I couldn't really make out a hole.
I touched the spot softly with my finger, and to my surprise, she was already soaking wet down there.
The only explanation I could think of was that being embarrassed apparently turns A-ko on.
I eventually found a spot below the clitoris that seemed like the right spot to start.
I licked the spot and tried performing cunnilingus for the first time.
While I didn't smell anything because I was still holding my breath, I suddenly had this salty taste on my tongue.
Since I wasn't sure if it was hygienic, I decided to go back to touching her with my fingers.
Upon closer inspection, I discovered small white things that looked like smegma in the folds of her vagina...
(Was the salty taste caused by these things...? Disgusting...)
Then I tried caressing what seemed like the entrance with my fingers, but there was no reaction from her.
At least, until I touched her clitoris with my finger while softly caressing her pussy in all directions.
When I did, A-ko finally let out a "Ahhn..." gasp that sounded like she was enjoying it.
(Here, huh? I guess, the best spot is the clitoris after all...)
637 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 15:56:43
I caressed her clitoris again, only this time I applied more force.
A-ko didn't react like I expected though. She exclaimed "O-Oww!" and pulled back.
"S-Sorry!"
"......please be more gentle, please..."
So I let my fingers glide softly over her wet pussy and then touched her clitoris with my now wet fingers,
which caused A-ko to let out another moan of pleasure.
It seemed to make her clitoris grow slightly bigger and stiffer too.
To be on the safe side, I asked A-ko "Does it feel good to be touched here? Does that voice mean it feels good?"
and watched her face as I continued to touch her, causing A-ko to blush like a tomato and answer embarassedly
"......yes, it feels good a-ahhn..."
In fact, I didn't avert my eyes from A-ko's face at all as I kept caressing her with my right middle finger as fast as I could.
"......please don't look at me like that it's embarrassing. ...ahhn, I can't keep my voice down...
I-It's embarrassing ahhh"
Her 100% pure and authentic moans and facial expressions turned me on like nothing else.
The embarrassed look on her face is the best. No contest.
"Are you embarrassed? Are you embarrassed?"
"......S-So embarrassed I could die... ahh"
655 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:02:04
Suddenly, a certain question crossed my mind.
(I heard women masturbate by touching their clitoris...
I guess most girls don't masturbate, but I wonder if A-ko does...
She's a virgin, so I guess it's unlikely...
And even if she had tried it once out of curiosity, I doubt she'd tell me.)
In order to get her into the mood even more, I asked her anyway. I don't know what I was thinking.
"Do you ever touch yourself? Guys do it multiple times everyday like monkeys. (lol)"
"............not everyday, but I do it once a week or so."
In my mind, I was like (What!? Are you for real!?) and couldn't believe how frank A-ko was,
but didn't let any of it show on my face, and asked "Ah, I guess, girls do it too then. How do you do it? Guys do it like this etc."
"......I lie on my bed, close my eyes and... touch my breasts... with my fingers..."
"......it's common knowledge that guys all masturbate, but... I read in a magazine that only perverted girls masturbate...
I'm shocked that you masturbate too, A-ko. Mas-tur-bate."
"Eh, no, I, I only do it from time to time..."
I must sound annoying as fuck, but it was just so arousing to see her get embarrassed.
And I was prepared to do anything to see A-ko's flustered and embarrassed face.
672 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:08:27
>>662
Huh? You think I was talking too much?
And no, I wasn't trying to act like a porn actor... orz
"This is the only spot I really can't show you because my skin is horrible there. I'm sorry..."
A-ko wouldn't let me take a closer look at her armpits no matter what,
(and she wasn't just too embarrassed or something, she was earnestly begging me not to look, so I didn't insist on it),
but she fulfilled all my other requests.
I made her hold my dick too.
I even asked her, "...I assume you don't want to kiss me there?"
"Ahaha, I don't mind. I mean I love you.", she answered, and even though she was nervous,
she didn't seem too reluctant, and she performed her first fellatio in her life on me.
At first, her teeth kept hitting my dick and it was more like a gnawjob than a blowjob,
but I gave her instructions, and after a while, she was licking the prepuce, and sucking on my penis the way I like it.
Meanwhile, I simply kept caressing her clitoris with my fingers as if to return the favor.
We were in the so-called 69 position with me on the bottom, trying our hardest to make each other feel good.
686 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:14:38
When you assume a position like 69, your partner's anus will be right in front of your eyes.
And there it was. A-ko's anus.
(For girls, showing their ＊ to someone should be about as embarrassing as showing their pussy.
I bet A-ko would be extremely embarassed if I told her I can see her anus.
But I can't see her face in this position, and I wouldn't want to miss it for the world. Guess I'll save it for later...)
I was observing A-ko's ＊ when I noticed it was moving in a peculiar way.
Every time I touched her clitoris, it'd clench tightly, and as soon as I removed my finger, it'd loosen up again.
Fascinated by the pattern, I gathered my courage and brought my nose nearer to A-ko's anus.
To my surprise, her anus didn't smell at all, unlike her pussy.
Relieved, I licked her ＊ roughly the moment it loosened up.
"AhhHhhHhhhHHHH"
A-ko's incredible outcry made me jump.
704 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:20:59
"AhhHhhHhhhHHHH"
......but that was all. No "Stop it! Not there!" followed.
Not a single complaint was to be heard from A-ko.
I licked her ＊ a second time, then a third time.
Every time, her ＊ closed tightly, and a cry of unrestrainable pleasure escaped her mouth.
Then I slid my index finger across her now completely wet-with-saliva anus again and again.
(We're doing some crazy stuff for a virgin couple... But I can't stop...)
I thought I understood a little how sex offenders must feel.
"How does it feel?"
"Good..."
I pulled my finger back, and the next time her ＊ loosened up, I forcefully shoved my index finger into it.
It went in effortlessly as far as the first joint. Her anus gripped the tip of my finger tight.
"Ahh, noo... W-wait, Senpai!"
"Does it hurt?"
"No, it feels good, but... I-I'd rather you don't do that."
(Maybe I got a bit carried away...)
"Sorry, sorry. (lol)"
I pulled my finger out. There seemed to be something stuck to the tip of my finger.
Upon closer look, something brown was stuck under my nail.
(.........This is... this is that, right...)
I timidly sniffed my finger hoping I was wrong, but it smelled like shit, alright.
720 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:26:02
>>709
Look, it's not like I want to talk about shit.
I'm just reporting what actually happened, and what went through my head...
In a panic, I quickly switched from the 69 to a normal posture and acted normal,
but in the back of my mind, I was reminded of a smell I never wanted to remember again.
It was the smell of fresh shit I was confronted with in the hotel toilet.
Before I noticed, my dick had shrinked down to a half-erect state.
(N-Not again! ......this is bad. Calm down! Panicking will only make it worse...)
A-ko saw me freeze in my tracks, and asked worriedly,
"Senpai, is something wrong?"
To hide the fact that my dick was going limp, I replied reflexively,
"Eh, nothing, ...I was just thinking your cute little butthole is so charming. (lol)"
"Senpai... What are you saying... It's embarrassing..."
My dick instantly reacted to A-ko's troubled expression on her blushing face.
(That's it! I just have to make A-ko feel embarrassed!)
734 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:32:05
Seeing the embarrassed look on A-ko's face and my dick's reaction to it, I continued to say lewd things to her.
"Just now, I... licked your anus, A-ko."
"......that's... I'm sorry."
"Why are you apologizing? There's nothing wrong with licking the anus of the person you love. It tasted good, you know?"
"......"
"......did you not enjoy getting licked there? ......don't you love me?"
"I do! It's just... I did enjoy it, but it's just so embarrassing..."
"If you enjoy it, could you say "Please lick my anus." for me?"
"......I can't."
"You think, I'm a pervert, A-ko, you think I'm lewd, don't you..."
"......that's not true... I'm sorry."
"Say it then. Please, I want you to say it..."
"............please lick me..." ← in a very thin voice
"Where?"
"............"
"......say it."
"............my anus."
"I can't hear you... Do you hate me? Now say the rest."
"......please lick my anus... ahh..."
"Please lick my anus because it feels so good. Say it."
"......please lick my... anus... because it feels... good."
That's how the conversation went.
A-ko was so embarrassed she was close to tears.
And I was so aroused I could have blown my load anytime.
(I can do this! ......it's going to work today...) I quickly put on a condom.
756 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:40:21
......Now, there's nothing really interesting or exciting to write about for the rest of the act.
I didn't get lost on my way to the pussy this time since I had examined it very carefully in bright light.
(Though, it's possible that it still took me a minute to find my way in... I don't remember it clearly.)
Inserting the tip of my penis didn't seem to hurt A-ko as much as it did the previous night,
but once the whole thing was inside, she was squirming in pain.
Seeing A-ko's face contort in pain every time I moved made it extremely hard for me to cum.
Before long, her vagina had started to go dry too.
I think A-ko was just desperately trying to endure the pain for my sake.
After a while, I finally ejaculated, but it didn't feel good at all because I was just exhausted.
(Guess this is sex...) is what I thought when I removed the dry, dirty condom.
"Well, at least, I finally lost my virginity."
The only thing I got out of it was the relief that I wasn't a virgin anymore.
A-ko too seemed happy that we had safely completed our first collaborative activity.
I took a shower first.
Then, while A-ko was in the shower, I was absentmindedly looking at the bed sheets,
when I found lots of dark red blood stains and mysterious light brown stains everywhere.
778 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:47:18
>>763
What I did with the shit stuck to my finger? ...I don't remember. I probably wiped it on the sheets...
We got into bed, laid together and just watched TV together for a while.
A dating show called "Koisuru Hanikami" was on, and two people were acting out a newlywed situation.
Seeing the omelette with fried rice the actress (Kawai Chiharu?) had made, A-ko commented
"If it's omelette with fried rice, I can make a better one than her."
"I love omelette with fried rice. I'd love to try it."
"I'll make it for breakfast then! ......do I have enough eggs left?"
"Ah... Hmm... I think I'm going home for today... I don't want to keep you from studying."
"Eh, you're leaving me alone......? I want you to stay."
When I saw the devastated look on A-ko's face, I started to feel really bad for her all of a sudden.
"Then... I think I'll stay for the night." I guess just can't say no to her.
"Really!? I'm so glad..." A-ko clung onto me with an incredibly happy look on her face.
"Senpai, I... I think I love you so much..."
A-ko buried her blushing face in my chest, but just seeing her face up-close was enough to turn me off.
Then she said she'd like to go to DisneySea after her exams are over.
(Seriously? I haven't been there since a field trip in middle school.
Hm? Oh wait, maybe that was Disneyland. Ugh, what a pain in the ass...
Am I really going to end up dating A-ko like this for real...?
Is this what I really want...?)
803 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:56:53
Before long, A-ko had fallen asleep with her head on my chest. I guess she was just feeling so at ease.
What was curious was that I didn't find her sleeping face ugly. On the contrary, I found her to be almost cute.
Here's what was going through my head:
......Am I really going to date A-ko from now on? There's no doubt that A-ko is a very nice girl.
I can't say it with absolute certainty since I don't know many other girls,
but I'm sure she's one of the nicest girls. I just know she is.
But her looks... It's not that she's too ugly to bear.
She's just not my type. If she was my type of girl, I wouldn't mind her being ugly.
It's too bad, it's just too bad, A-ko! Guys are all about looks, mostly.
......whoa, she's snoring now. Come on, you're a girl, A-ko, why are you snoring?
Ah, she stopped. ......nope, she's at it again. Ah, stopped again.
Well, I guess she's just that exhausted.
......but even if I were to break up with A-ko, would B-ko go out with an ugly guy like me?
There's no way she would, is there!? Why did I even consider the possibility that she would?
When you think about it, there's probably only 1 woman in 10,000 who could love someone like me.
And maybe A-ko is just one of those rare women.
807 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 16:58:02
My thoughts continued:
But wait, wait. Who would have thought that I'd ever lose my virginity? I sure as hell didn't.
Even your wildest dream can come true if you actually do something to make it happen. I'm sure of it.
That's right. A-ko has given me confidence. The confidence I need to confess my love to B-ko...
B-ko... I'd love to see her naked... I bet she's soft and cuddly...
If it was B-ko, I wouldn't have any trouble making love to her...
Hey, hold on a second! A-ko offered her virginity to me because she trusts me!
I couldn't break up with her! What kind of asshole asks a girl out, takes her virginity,
only to break up with her right after that? I should wait until I've dated her for a few months, at least.
......yeah, I might even get used to her ugly face and learn to love her with all my heart.
Nah, I doubt it. But she is kinda cute when she's sleeping like thi- Huh? Wha-?
What the hell........................ She's sleeping with her eyes open!
A-ko was sleeping with her eyes half-open.
I could see the whites of her eyes showing through her half-open eyelids.
I thought my heart was going to stop when I noticed it the first time.
(T-This is too much... I can't deal with this. ＿|￣|○ I gotta get the fuck away from her...)
838 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 17:08:56
After about an hour, A-ko finally woke up.
"Ah... Did I fall asleep? I'm sorry."
I wanted to ask her if she always sleeps with her eyes half open at first,
but now that we'd finished having sex, I was too embarrased to ask.
"You must be tired because you haven't gotten much sleep in a while. You look cute when you were sleeping."
I don't know why I always end up saying something nice, the opposite of what I really think.
Maybe it's because I constantly feel bad and feel like I'm betraying her or something.
Then she told me about her hobbies, her future and other stuff I don't particularly care about.
I just kept nodding my head like a yes-man, listening to it all patiently.
"By the way, when exactly did you know you'd fallen in love with me?"
"More than a year ago or so. But you know what, I think I was in love with you ever since I met you, A-ko.
It just took me that long to notice."
"Ahaha. I'm happy to hear that. Ever since I joined the club in first year?"
Suddenly, a certain idea popped up in my head.
(If I throw in some foreshadowing here, maybe she won't be as shocked when I break up with her?)
The next moment, the words had inadvertently slipped out of my mouth.
"Speaking of which, around April last year, I might have felt attracted to B-ko for some time."
"............"
After several seconds of silence, when I was starting to regret it, A-ko continued talking like nothing had happened.
"......I see. And who do you like the most now?"
"Hahaha. You, of course, A-ko."
"Of course. I like you the most too, Senpai. Ahaha."
(I have to seriously watch what I say...)
After the initial panic at my slip of the tongue, I was sure I had lucked out.
849 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 17:14:35
After that, when we were exchanging memories of summer camp,
A-ko started talking about B-ko all of a sudden.
"You know, I couldn't believe my eyes when I shared a bath with B-ko during summer camp.
B-ko has a surprisingly big belly. It gets like three folds when she sits down."
(Is she emphasizing how chubby B-ko is because I told her I like slender girls?)
Well, actually, I get hard when I imagine B-ko's plump and volumptuous body.
As we kept on talking, A-ko kept bringing up B-ko again and again.
"Did you know that B-ko had a crush on senpai ☆☆ in first year and made moves on him,
but got shot down hard?"
"B-ko is a lot more stubborn than one would think. She doesn't seem to get along with ○-mi and others at all.
I don't have anything against B-ko though..."
"B-ko's always smiling at drinking parties, but she says the meanest things when we're alone.
She's always badmouthing other senpai and stuff. I usually don't say anything and listen because it's funny."
I was beginning to get pissed.
874 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 17:20:23
"......could you please stop speaking ill of B-ko?"
"I'm not speaking ill of her."
"That's what it sounds like to me though. I don't want you to speak ill of others, A-ko."
I went to the restroom for a bit to escape the heavy mood,
but when I got back, A-ko was sitting on the bed crying.
"What's wrong?"
"...nothing."
"Come on, tell me. ......I don't like seeing girls cry, especially you, A-ko.
I want you to be your calm and gentle self at all times."
A-ko answered with tears in her eyes,
"......it's your fault, Senpai. Why do you take B-ko's side?
You should know how it makes me feel to hear about how you used to like B-ko, Senpai.
And if you know, how can you still take her side and say something so cold to me?"
She wasn't making any sense.
"It's not about B-ko. All I said was that I don't want you to speak ill of others."
A-ko kept crying harder and harder, and I got more and more annoyed by it.
I already made her cry a little that time before we met in Shibuya (that was my fault),
but this was the first time in my life that I'd made a woman cry right in front of my eyes.
(Jesus Christ, give me a break...)
890 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 17:25:31
As A-ko kept on crying in front of me, I thought to myself,
(Hold on, depending on how you look at it, this might be a good opportunity to break up with her...)
A-ko was obviously to blame this time because she talked shit about others out of nowhere.
I held back the words of comfort that were about to escape my mouth again,
and instead just listened to A-ko crying on and on.
(She can't blame me even if we were to break up because of this fight, can she...?)
A-ko came closer, still crying.
But I wasn't going to make up with her, so I steeled my heart, stood up, and said,
"I'm going home for today. No worries, I'll just kill time somewhere and take the first train in the morning."
"......do you not like me anymore?"
"That's not it, but... I just think it might be best if we put a little distance between us, and cooled our heads."
It was a stereotypical line you say when you've been in a relationship for many years.
904 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 17:31:10
Just when I couldn't take it anymore and turned to the door to get away from her crying,
A-ko came after me saying "Please don't go! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!".
I thought I was prepared for anything, but I was wrong.
I didn't expect her to cling to my leg while crying her eyes out.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry so much. ......I guess we're not very compatible."
"I'm sorry. It's my fault... Uhh, hic."
A-ko was crying and hiccupping like a 3-year-old baby.
"I promise I won't say anything you don't like anymore, Senpai... I'll always do what you tell me..."
Slowly but surely, she was making me feel bad for the entire situation.
"......alright, I get it. I'm not going, okay? I said too much. I'm sorry. ...don't cry anymore."
"Do you... hate me now? ...hic"
"I don't hate you, A-ko, so please stop crying..."
932 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 17:38:04
It took A-ko more than half an hour to return to her calm self.
However, now she was saying stuff like "I want to be with you 24/7, Senpai.",
or "If it's too inconvenient for you to come to my place, I could stay in your apartment all the time.".
After a while, she even said "I don't mind ditching my exam on Tuesday. I can take it next year.".
Unable to turn A-ko down, I ended up promising her to stay together with her in her room
until she leaves for her test on Tuesday.
The next morning, I slept in until noon and had her make omelette with fried rice for me.
It looked super yummy and it was super yummy. A-ko can cook, alright.
When I told her how good it was, A-ko had completely returned to her normal all-smiles self.
I spent all day reading manga next to A-ko studying for her exam.
At first, I was disappointed because she didn't seem to have any good manga,
but then I found a shojo manga called "Clover" and read it to kill time.
Since I hadn't changed my underwear after having sex with her and my dick was starting to itch,
I told her I'd go fetch a change of clothes and other stuff I need for a sleepover,
and got to go home for a few hours.
954 Name:Live ◆1nK0g9zDgo Date:04/09/21 17:45:56
When I was getting dressed to head home, A-ko asked me hesitantly,
"......umm, ......is it okay if I tell ○-mi that we just started going out?"
"A-Ah, ......sure. I don't mind."
I was on the verge of giving up.
"Ahh, I'm so glad. (lol) Actually, I told her about us as soon as I left the family restaurant.
I was worried what I'd do if you said no. (lol)"
(......heh, so it was already too late to break up with her without anyone knowing.)
I forced a smile and said "Ah, is that right?".
It was after hearing about how she'd already told others about us that I finally decided to go out with her.
On my way out, A-ko handed me a letter and asked me to read it on the train.
It was full of empty phrases like
"If going out with me makes you happy, even if only a tiny bit, I'll be the happiest person in the world."
On one hand, I didn't want to give up on B-ko, and on the other, I wanted to go out with A-ko,
focussing on what I like about her and ignoring everything else.
I was always torn between these two feelings, but A-ko's crying voice would always bring me back down to reality.
(I don't want to see her cry like that again... I couldn't take it. Guess I don't have a choice but to go out with her...)
To be continued...